The other side of your doubts

I’ve been on a soul-revamping journey. It’s been uncomfortable, upsetting, and humbling.

This past year I realized just how much my coping mechanism’s, choices and reactions were made from a fear-based mindset that affected not only me but everyone I came in contact with. I knew that if I didn’t adjust my thought process I wouldn’t be able to move forward with my life in a healthy, fulfilling way.

Despite being a fairly responsible, independent grown up there was still a little voice that popped up occasionally saying, “I don’t want to do this by myself!” followed by a wave of panic. It wasn’t until recently I recognized why I couldn’t let go of this little handful of worry I still clung to: I didn’t trust myself.

I unconsciously believed that since none of my previous plans ever turned out the way I planned, I wasn’t good at decision maker so I shouldn’t bother trying. If possible I would prolong or avoid it. I was petrified of failure to the point I was limiting my growth.

Because I allowed fear to dictate my success I automatically failed by default.

It’s not a switch I can just turn on and instantly feel better. But by recognizing the lack of trust in myself I finally saw the worry I held on to was only smoke and mirrors. By learning to trust in my intuition I allow myself to grow, to forgive, to learn, to be comfortable with being uncomfortable. With forgiveness comes trust, and with trust comes love; love is incredibly more powerful, sustaining and empowering than fear. Love is freedom from fear.

Trust that you are more than your insecurities. Trust that you are brave. Trust that you can learn from mistakes, forgive yourself, and move forward.

Because once you do, you’ll find your courage on the other side of your doubts.

Sarah Lorna